Then we began lingering after church, then walking, then coffee, then lunch.
It happened so gently that I did not recognize it as love at first. I thought it was two old people keeping each other from disappearing into their own silence.
He told me he had lost his wife in a car accident years ago.
“It was just me and my daughter after that. Linda.” There was something careful in the way he said her name. “I raised her on my own and never remarried.”
“After losing my Daniel, I’ve come to realize that some losses divide your life into before and after,” I replied.
He took my hand in his. “That’s exactly how I felt.”
That was around the time I started thinking I could love again. I was loving again.
Then I met Linda.
Arthur had invited me to dinner, and she arrived halfway through dessert — tall and neat, with dark hair pinned back and a face like stone.
Arthur stiffened when she entered. That was the first odd thing. He seemed nervous.
“Oh, you have company.” Linda looked me up and down, then tilted her head. “This is the woman you told me about?”
Arthur nodded. “This is Caroline. Caroline, my daughter, Linda.”
“A pleasure to meet you,” Linda said, holding out her hand, but nothing about her suggested she meant the words.
Later, Arthur said, “She’s just protective. It’s been only us for a long time.”
I believed him. Why wouldn’t I?
There were other moments, too. Small things I ignored because happiness, when it arrives late, feels too precious to challenge.
Once, Arthur and I were having dinner at a restaurant when an older man clapped him on the shoulder.
Arthur stiffened, and for a moment, I thought I saw fear in his eyes.
Then he smiled and said, “You can’t honestly expect me to sum up 25 years in one sentence?”
The man laughed. “Same old, Arthur.”
They chatted for a few minutes, then Arthur called for the check and said we had to leave. We hadn’t even discussed having dessert yet.
